Friday, December 31, 2010
1. I am 90% "cured" of my skin condition by ditching my dermatologists who just threw their hands in the air in "we don't know what else to do" and shot me with Cortisone. As a general rule, don't let doctors shoot cortisone in you. Really, it's like taking duct tape and fixing a leaking faucet. I was grateful to hear about a Natural path. doctor whom changed my diet, eliminated the tons of yeast growth in my gut, added vitamins and minerals which helped my restart my immune system, which ultimately healed my skin. Healing from the inside out. I have my life back.
2. The boys were not sick during this past year. Maybe one cold each. That's a lot considering they have gone "Public" as in public school. My kids never have had an ear infection, continual flu, or cold that seem to afflict a lot of young kids. People would tell me, "oh, they'll get it when they go to public school". Well. So far so good. Let's roll this into 2011. They are so impressed with themselves that they can make it across the monkey bars at the park, ran a 5K with me, and just play by themselves without me directing and participating in every event. I will be forever in debt to God for letting me have these two boys.
3. My lovely. He has had a chronic sinus infection for over a year. He has seen an ENT, had catscans, sleep study, been on the heavyweights of antibiotics. NOTHING HELPED. Then he went to my "witch doctor" as he calls my Natural path. doctor. His treatment started six months ago and now he is back to his pre-sinus self. I have my husband back. He went from popping Exedrin and allergy medicine every 6 hours to relieve the symptoms to nothing!!! One year ago, he would only have enough energy to make it to work and home. Then sat on the couch until he went to bed because his head hurt so badly. We are all thankful for lovely's return to the Saturday morning dancing, Logger Larry, and just fun guy again.
4. Marathon. Done.
5. 20 year high school reunion. I looked great, in fact better than I did in high school. The girls I grew up with were all there and we had a ball talking about our kids and husbands. All of the girls either stayed home with their kids or their husbands stayed home. How cool is that?
6. Finding vintage Fiestaware at a garage sale that I was going to pass up. Finding an ice cream maker with two extra bowls for $3. Highlight of my yard sale '10.
7. My lovely's sister got married. She has been dating the same guy for eight years and finally they got married. It was a big and wonderful wedding.
8. My grandma passed on in June. She was a hoot and I think...no I'm sure I get my big mouth from her. I miss her. I am thankful to know her. I hope she's finally getting to do all the things she was too fearful to do here on earth. She was 92 years old.
9. Got to intern with my mom for one week. She is awesome. So talented. She is an extraordinary semstress and she specializes in drapes, upholstery, and clothes. She is an artist. I got to spend a week with her and it was too short. I wished I could have been a better daughter to learn from her before now.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Sew all four sides together. Unsnap the buttons and shove a 14" x 14" pillow form inside. Voila!! Repurposed pillow.
Total time: 10 minutes.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Poppy Seed Bread
3/4 cup very warm water
1/2 cup warm lemon yogurt
2 T honey
4 1/2 tsp butter, melted
2 tsp lemon extract
1 tsp salt
3 cups bread flour
4 1/2 tsp nonfat dry milk powder
2 T poppy seeds
1 T grated lemon peel
2 1/4 tsp SAF instant yeast
Combine all ingredients in a mixing with hook attachment. Blend until smooth ~5 minutes. Form into dough and allow to rest in greased bowl for 1 hour (covered). Punch down. Roll out using rolling pin and form into loaf shape. Place in greased loaf pan for 1 hour (covered). Bake at 350F for 32 minutes.
2 T lemon juice
1/2 cup powdered sugar
Mix and drizzle over warmed bread
3 T butter, softened
1/2 cup powdered sugar
Mix until uniformed.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
When I was pregnant with both my lovely boys, I struggled to breath and move around due to my umpa lumpa form. I was really big. The pinacle of how large I got: 4' 11'' and 175 lbs. AAAGGHH. Poor feet. My feet hurt all the time throughout both pregnancies. Don't get me started on gestational diabetes. Having my children were the two most defining moments of my life. I am forever grateful to get to love these two boys. However, in my mind, I was struggling to hide how much weight I had not taken off and how I didnt' want to have my picture taken because I couldn't bear to look at how big I was.
Wedding. It was all I could do to workout twice/day for months to fit into my wedding dress. The wedding dress I found was beautiful but because of my rolls and frame, I had a difficult time finding a dress that would fit me. Again, I was scared to be the focus of attention because I was so big and in WHITE.
Fast forward to now. I am up 5 lbs. from last year and I am so scared to gain back all the weight. But like the cycle that has run throughout my life, the more scared I get, the more I mess up with my eating. That's where I'm at. I wish I could be one of those people who cuts back on the food as soon as my clothes feel tighter. I just get stressed out about how I let myself get big enough to not be able to fit into my clothes-it's just in a smaller size. I am tired of forever worrying about my weight.
I know this is a depressing and whiny post but this is where I'm at. It helps to get it out of my system.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
I love the smell of my boys first thing in the morning (still warm and pliable) hugging me. I love to kiss the are from one's jawline to neck area on my boys' & husband's faces. I love the way my husband smells.
Lastly, I love everything about Thanksgiving dinner. I love the preparation, the cooking, the cleaning, the way it takes 20 minutes to devour everything you spent two days making. I love how family and friends rally together to share this wonderful meal. I love the leftovers for days.
I love it all and I hope no one is sitting about home by themselves and not having Thanksgiving. I hope anyone I know reading this who are by themselves to come over. I would love to share my abundance with you tomorrow and any other day. I am thankful. Very, very thankful.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
AAGGHHH!! It's not about what I want, but I would like to have family around for the holidays. But right now, I'm just thankful we are safe and warm at home. I'm so thankful to not have to travel right now. Anyhow, I've been blogging M.I.A. because I've been recovering from my month-long skin problems which has made me bonkers. I've been itchy and uncomfortable in my skin for over a month now and finally this past week or so, it's subside to managable.
I hope everyone has a warm and loving place to spend Thanksgiving.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
With muffled laughter, lovely and I discussed how S.E. wins girls over with his nurturing and big ole eyes. I wonder why everyone says my lovely was such a sweet boy. His big ole eyes and easy disposition.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
This question was posed in a weight loss blog I was reading and I have been thinking about this because I think I've been losing my fight with the scale as of late. So I decided I would ponder about what being healthy means to me because that's why I got my act together almost two years ago to lose 30 lbs.
Since words are failing me at this moment, how about what does healthy look like? To me it looks like someone like Halle Berry. I'm no Halle Berry but I think she's not too thin or too muscular. She has a woman's body and when she bends over, her stomach doesn't have any rolls. There it is. The stomach rolls. I have them even though I weigh 25 lbs less than when I started (I have gained 5 lbs. in the last two months...even with running a marathon). I don't how I feel in clothes so I don't feel healthy. I feel like I'm a copycat. a fraud. I'm still in my fat state of mind.
Back to the question. Being healthy to me means not being out of breath due to physical exertion. Being healthy to me means not overeating. Being healthy to me means no Jelly Belly belly. Being healthy is doing the work to maintain a healthy lifestyle (exercise, rest, eat clean and lean). Right now, I barely push myself during my workouts, eat unhealthy foods everyday, and eat too much. I can't seem to stop myself. I need to respect myself enough to not eat garbage. I'm having myself a huge pity-party.
So, how do I get myself back on track? Keep working out even if I don't feel like it. Drink water. Stop eating before my stomach hurts. And give myself a break.
It seems I've written about this topic over and over again but in addition to my allergies, I abhor this time of year. Everything is changing too fast and it's too dark too soon. I'm going to stop writing so I don't have to subject you to my *!^$#*ing and moaning. Take care all and hope you have a better day than me.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
3/4 cup creamy peanut butter
4 oz. cream cheese (I used light)
1 cup powdered/confectioners' sugar
1- 8 oz. carton frozen whipped topping, thawed
1 graham cracker crust (I bet it would be even more irresistable with chocolate crust)
1/4 cup salted chopped peanuts
In a large bowl, beat the peanut butter, cream cheese, and sugar until smooth. Fold in whipped topping. Pour into prepared crust. Sprinkle with nuts. Chill until serving. Refrigerate leftovers (as if there'd be any left).
You've been warned.
Monday, October 25, 2010
1) Don't forget to find time for yourself(for me it's exercise, reading, and sewing). One hour, squeeze it in. When I was new to this job, I felt guilty when I would take a break and felt like I was cheating my family for not being there. But, my health suffered and I was really short with the kids because I felt overwhelmed.
2) Be thrifty as much as possible because kids are expensive and I'm not just talkin' diapers. Everything is temporary except for the relationship you develop with your kids.
3) Don't forget to spend time with your love-the man who made it possible for you to stay home. Taking care and talking about the kids is not meeting all his needs. I'm only starting to be better at this. Date night. Budget it in.
4) Get a tough skin against negative/well-intentioned busybodies (like myself) on how you should raise your kids. You know what's best for them. Trust yourself. Even if what's best for them is uncomfortable for you.
5) Get up and get yourself ready like you would go to work. When you feel better and look better, life's just a little bit more manageable.
6) Your kids and hubby never get tired of hugs and kisses...really. I'm not a real touchy feely person and it was hard in the beginning to do this but now, I stop and just kiss them and hug them. Even if I spend most of my day with them.
Okay, so it might not be so helpful but I guess I needed the reminding.
Today is so windy, I am almost thankful my kids have this week off of school because I don't want to leave the house. The boys are playing I Spy and buliding houses with tape and construction paper. I cleaned my cupboards in my kitchen and rotated food. Hopefully, I'll get to sew for pleasure and go running at the gym.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Please don't itch. Please stop breaking out in little hives. Please. Please. I know you didn't like it when I messed with raspberries and other berries and pitched a huge fit all over my body. I won't eat any fruit and will try to not be depressed over the extra pound or two I gained due to it. Not an apple. Not a banana. Nothing. Promise. Just let me heal. I'm tired of scratching all night long. I'm tired. Please.
"Why do you ask S.E.?" -Me
"Well, I was thinking he's very busy trying to remember the little good kids and he might not have time to get it all done." -S.E.
Such big, big dilemma for a six-year old.
Koo on the other hand, is either happy or sad in a matter of three seconds flat. After he outgrows shirts and pants, they go the garbage pile. Stains. Check. Holes. Check. Unraveling of seams. Check. His place at the table after he's done eating is usually sticky and wet. If we are walking in a field, Koo will find the one poo pile left by dogs and step in it. I've have used sticks, water, soap, and paper towel combination many times to remove caked-on poo underneath shoes. Sometimes, I just give up and chuck the shoes. If there's stuck-on gum anywhere, he'll be digging it up to show me. What I love about him is he does all this and more whole-heartedly. He's more likely to go with the flow.
Two boys. Came out of same belly. Oh, so opposite. Both are the sun and moon for me. Thank goodness for opposites. If I had only one type I would not be as open-minded about how unique and special children are. The best lesson I've witness is tolerance for differences. The boys have had to adjust and accept each other's habits and try to make the best of the situation.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Next, my friends (and the boys surrogate aunt & uncle) Tia and Tio for taking my boys on a journey to Portland this past weekend so I could just focus on the race. My boys had an absolute fantastic time and they are ready to go next year. I'm not sure I can take another two straight days without my kids being an hour or so near. I will admit I had to look at a lot of pictures of them and called them way too many times during their time away but I missed their spirit in our home. Lovely and I spoke of how quiet it was around the house without them-and clean.
To my friends and trainers who only spoke of encouraging words and to support me when I believed I couldn't possible run a marathon. Also this may sound cheesy but whenever I was running a long run, I would think as I'm running along by myself, that I was actually being carried by God.
Now, this marathon didn't define me, what it did was a symbol of how strong I am to do something I never thought I could do. Whatever your "marathon" moment is, I hope this blog finds someone whose looking for that extra encouragement to push yourself.
Not bad for an overweight, pre-diabetic mom who two years ago couldn't make it through the day without taking six Advils just to do normal tasks.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
I had a great support team of friends and family saying I could do it and to my friend Ro for driving and just being a security blanket on race day in case I needed help. Last but not least, to my friend Mr. Beefcake for not only telling me I could do this but helped me train for this run. On top of it, he ran it too.
So what did I learn? Even when you want to give up-stick to your commitment and have the courage to do it-even when you are afraid to.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Also, I have not made time for studying the Bible and continuing my relationship with God. I mean a deliberate relationship with him. I'm finding that I when I'm helping the kids with their verses, I just want them to memorize them-not explain what those verses mean. Something has to give.
So I am halting my alterations-on-the-side job. I don't make enough for the time I spend on stuff and I'll pick it up again once both boys are in school for more than two hours. I thought I could do this but I'm finding that any extra "free" time at home is spent working on fixing clothes for others. While I enjoy this, I love my boys so much I don't want to miss what it means to be a mom whose job is to help raise well-rounded boys and to stare at my husband for more than 10 seconds without wondering if I can sneak a moment downstairs to work. He works hard enough for us...So, I'm finishing up the last of my obligations and I'm done. Only for pleasure and for fun. I hope you all understand. My boys won't stop growing-they need my full attention.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Saturday, September 18, 2010
They love to practice play sparing, attack aliens that want to come and take over the toyroom, make paper airplanes, catch worms, grasshoppers, and catapillars. Pray they don't bring home a snake for me.
Lastly, they are continuing AWANA-which they absolutely LOVE! I love theys two boys so much and am grateful for every hug, every smile, cry, and laughter in my presence. It just goes too fast.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Here's the lowdown of the summer: lots of visiting family, my maternal grandmother passing's, two weddings, 20-year high school reunion, and most recent, my lovely husband's paternal grandfather is very, very ill.
Now here's the part that I'm most baffled by-I have not been inspired to run for hours. I don't know if it's because my good-for-my-skin diet has totally wiped out all the foods I love or I'm just not in a good groove. Add to that, my feet have been hurting-a lot so when I run, I've been overcompensating and so my knees have started to hurt. I'm trying not to panic as I write this.
The break I've given myself and believe me it took a lot of thinking, I will only run in the half-marathon instead of a full marathon. I'm just not ready and mentally and physically, I'm not as fit as I was in the spring. I don't know why I've lost my way...but I'm just going to run for running sake instead of trying to meet miles and time. I want to enjoy running again. I want to still run a full marathon...just not next month.
Friday, August 6, 2010
"Why honey?" -me
"So Santa can bring our gifts to us." -Koo
"No Koo, he comes through our door." -S.E.
"No, S.E., he comes through our vents." -Koo
"Wow Koo, how do you know what vents are?" -me
"Dad gets mad when I put things down the vents." -Koo
"So, Koo you're saying Santa turns to dust to deliver presents? That doesn't make sense Koo." -S.E.
And off we continue to go to one of our favorite thrift stores.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Oh yeah. I taught them to play Uno. They plotted against me and both ended up winning. So much fun to see the boys work together and be each other's friend instead of trying to plot against each other. Can we say we are phasing out of "that phase"? I hope so. Besties for life is what I tell them about each other.
Oh, and I should have pictures of them up but I'm so swamped with sewing projects-you'll just have to stop by for a visit.
Friday, July 30, 2010
She was one of my favorite in my heart. She was a very brave woman. She never learned how read or write but she was a very hard worker and did what she had to in order to raise her eight children. Back in the day when women didn't strike out on their own and were dependent on my grandfather, she did the best she could. I am so grateful to be where I am and not forget that learning to read and write is a privilege because of her. She would tell me stories of her life and regrets when I was around twelve so I didn't get a chance to ask her questions that linger now.
I miss her but what's hard is to see my mom miss her mommy.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Then, after college, I worked for a local Northwest flour company which made dry mixes of pancakes, brownies, cookies, and breads. I had to test new ingredients to see how they worked in existing products and make sure all raw materials going into the dry mixes still stood the test of shelf-life. And right before I started cranking out babies, I worked for the USDA in their wheat quality division. We tested wheat varieties for the Northwest taking it from milling all the way to the end product (breads, cookies, and cakes). Lots of lab testing and baking. Ultimately, the goal was to find wheat varieties which farmers can plant and get the perfect combination of high yield whiling making great cookies, noodles, or breads.
Funny how no one asks me what I did before kids...
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
"No, we get to stay up there with God." -Mom
"But what if we fall down?" -Koo
"I think once we are up there, we get to stay there." -Mom
"But I will miss my house mommy." -Koo
Monday, July 5, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
As for Bible school, the boys have been calling a man "Dude". We were reading stories from their Bibles (given to them by the church) and they were telling me where "Dude" wants them to read. Had I not attended on Tuesday, I would have been confused. Well, they are enjoying it and getting up each day this week and going through the motions without much fuss. Now, if only I can get me to not fuss at them.
My goal is to try to go from Nagger-Drill Sergeant to Loving Mommy again. It's just too important.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Yesterday, I ran down to the gym and lifted weights for one hour and ran home. I'm tired and sore today. I hope I'll be able to get another nice workout in today.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
all canned vegetables and fruits
beans (green, brown, and white)
peas (including split peas)
fresh and dried figs
wheat bran products (whioe wheat breads and cereals)
chocolate and cocoa drinks
tea from dispensers
nuts (almonds, hazelnuts, peanuts, sunflower seeds)
sweets containing chocolate
vitamin / mineral supplements containing nickel
So armed with time, panic, and high-speed internet, I have been searching nickel allergy. I have found foods on sites that are not on my list. Much to my horror, most of the foods I eat to help maintain my weightloss are on the list: beans, all canned fruits and vegetables, shellfish, all nuts, whole grains and the kicker BAKING POWDER. I bake all the time!!
So, while I choke down oatmeal each morning, I'm starting my day off with nickel. As, I eat a few almonds to stave off my hunger, I'm eating nickel. As I bake everything, I'm eating nickel. Like I said, I'm overwhelmed.
I'm trying to find the bright side. At least I found out what I can avoid to help my skin. I'm going to embark on this elimination diet and hope to high heavens I get some relief for my itchy, painful, hideous-looking sores all over skin.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
I love how God works in my life. Sometimes I don't want to be a mom. I remember life before kids and sometimes I crave that especially when I'm cleaning up around a toilet or wipe up spilled food and milk. Then I remember how important my job is and that being a mom is not a right but a privilege.
There are women without kids and kids without moms in this world anymore. So what did I do to honor them and show my gratitude for God trusting me to take care of two wonderful boys and to share this journey of raising them with my husband, their dad. I was lucky enough to get to share my "day" with a special lady and her fiance (she's like a daughter to me) and one of my bestfriend P and her husband. I made dinner and got to enjoy my family and friends. Truly a wonderful day.
Friday, May 7, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Tuesday morning, I ran hills for 30 minutes: 8 incline 5.0 speed, 9 incline 4.5, 10 incline 4.0 for 10 minutes each. Then ran sides & reverse and 7.0 speed for a total of 43 minutes.
Wednesday, 45 minutes of hard total body bootcamp. I'm sore. Ate yogurt and stretched really well. I'm trying to stay focus and really try to get the weight down so I can run faster.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Friday, April 30, 2010
"Mom, why is that man on a mountain by himself?"
"I like the music"
"Why does that man not have a shirt on?"
After doing warrior pose three (balance on one leg forming a T)..."Mom, I hope he doesn't make us do warrior five pose". Note: each warrior pose was harder than the previous. Whew. Warrior three was it. Fun.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
They got to take pictures with Spongebob Squarepants, Minnie Mouse, and high-fived Butch the mascot. Also, there was this synchronized trampoline act that was AMAZING.
This carnival was ideal for me because: no huge crowds, stinky smells, or long lines. I wished I didn't forget the camera and had called everyone I knew to go-we just happened to drive by it and decided to go. The boys absolutely LOVED it which of course made me happy.
Friday, April 23, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Friday, April 16, 2010
Also, this kid has one speed-fast. His give-mom-a-heart-attack-move is running full speed down a hill, look over his shoulder and speed up. Sometimes he doesn't fall, but the times he has-it hurts but apparently not enough to stop this practice. There's not a fort, structure, or project of his big brother's that he doesn't destroy as soon as it's left unattended. I'm sure this is typical behavior for a boy but I'm having a hard time because I feel like I'm a broken record with all the "STOP!" and "NO!".
On the bright side, he is so lovable. Very affectionate and has a killer smile and is just spunky. I love that he still loves to cuddle with me.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Why am I ranting about this today? I surf at a lot of crafty bloggers and am amazed that a lot of women have time to work on holiday crafts. For example, there are a lot of felt bunnies and mod podged eggs being cranked out. Amazing work. Too much effort for me to even attempt.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
However, I am more conscious of not using food to mask feelings. It doesn't make a problem go away when I engage in emotional eating. I have to repeat to myself that I should eat only when I'm hungry. No other reason. This helps to write this out. I'm not sure where all this talk is getting me-it just helps.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
1 TBSP canola or olive oil
4 1/2 tsp lemon juice
1 tsp prepared mustard
1 minced garlic clove
1 tsp ground black pepper
6 cups torn Romaine lettuce
1/4 cup croutons
1/4 cup shredded parmesan
There, you can get your Caesar salad fix without busting the waistline.
So here's how yesterday's lesson:
Koo: "Mommy, I have to go potty."
Me: "Okay, let's go buddy. (As he is doing his business) Koo, you're not drinking the water again right?"
Koo: "Actually Mom, I am because I sink when I swim."
Me: "Ewwhh Koo, try not to do it again okay?"
Koo: "Okay mom."
Yeah right. 10 minutes later, he comes out of the water again. BIG SIGH from me.
Koo: "Mom, I have to go potty again."
So off we go to the potty. Glad we talked buddy. BTW, this class is only 30 minutes long. That's lot of chlorinated-to-mask-all-the-pee-happening in there water. On an up note, he used to go potty six times in 30 minutes when we first started swimming lessons.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
But like any absent mom, I took no photos so the moment is lost forever. Feeling a bit loser-ish over the whole matter.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
On a progress note: Strength trained and cardio 1 hour. Ran 4 miles.