Thursday, March 25, 2010

What the...slam on brakes!!

I think the squirrels in my town have a death wish because they are running aimlessly through the streets. Since it's warmer now, I wonder if this haphazard and dangerous trek is due to hormones raging and they are out and about looking for love. Or perhaps just looking for some good nuts. Aren't we all?! So sad because I've driven by three flattened squirrels that did not make it. So sad.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

weighing in on the matter

It's been awhile since I've blogged about my weight and my continual struggle to reconcile the vision I have in my mind with what I actually look like. Living in this lighter body has not made me feel thinner. I still struggle with the same issues as when I was 30 lbs. heavier. Fat days when jeans fit tight, when I am bored or stressed-I overeat, and when I just forget that I have to take care of myself-I eat.

However, I am more conscious of not using food to mask feelings. It doesn't make a problem go away when I engage in emotional eating. I have to repeat to myself that I should eat only when I'm hungry. No other reason. This helps to write this out. I'm not sure where all this talk is getting me-it just helps.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

I think every blogger struggles to figure out how much to share and how much to hold back. Well, I've been struggling with this sadness for about two weeks now and it's not about me. It's not my story. I can't share details. It's about my friend who went through a HORRIFIC loss and I am so sad for her that it is manifesting itself in depression for me. I can't talk about it or think about it without tearing up. All I know is there is no correct way or one way to get over something you shouldn't have to get over. This sadness isn't going away anytime soon but I've got to trudge on in order to not be short with my loved ones.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Finding a Happy Place

Can't seem to find you. Misplaced you somewhere. Could it be under a puddle of pee on my just cleaned bathroom? Can't find it anywhere. Must go run and see if I can locate it or just keep running away...

Friday, March 5, 2010

Point and click

The boys have officially become computer savy. They do not know how to read and spell words and in the past when we have tried to teach them how the mouse works-clueless, uncertainty, and frustration would set in. Well, on Wednesday, we were at the library checking out books to devour and S.E. sat at the kid's computer and next thing you know, he's playing "I Spy" by pointing and clicking!! They get the drag, double-click, and all before they know how to read. Koo picked it up by watching S.E. play the game. They love hidden pictures game. Thanks Highlights magazine and Richard Scarry books.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Should be grateful

I should be grateful that I have two healthy boys and not frustrated because life around me is in chaos. My home does not need to be immaculate or everything has to be in perfect order. I have found that I've been emotionally drained lately so this manifests into being short with the kids. I noticed the boys don't talk to me the way they used to or come to me with problems. Must go hug and love my boys.