Thursday, March 7, 2013

Puke. Yes another post about my weight.

I'm still trying to get back to 130 lbs. But my heart isn't in it the way it was when I was 160 lbs. trying to get to this goal.

I've seen this weight. I felt good but I still felt the panic of gaining weight and watching what I eat.

I am now sitting at 138 lbs. and some days I see 142 lbs. and batten down the hatches and watch what I eat for days and days.

Here's the turn around folks. Living inside my head looks like this most of my life:  beating myself up for not being the ideal and perfect weight. Letting my hard work slip away with overindulging.

But I had a revelation about a month ago.  I've been CONSISTENTLY exercise since 2009!!! And for the past two years, it's been at home whether it's been the running (outside & treadmill), biking, or following a DVD. I not only transition from working out at the gym (I thought that was the only way I could make myself workout) to seriously getting my sweat on at home.

Never in my life would I have done this. In my twenties, I had a lot of DVDs  VHSs from Denise Austin to Cindy Crawford. I would do this for a week and never do it again. Never.

Now, I rotate my workouts and while I'm not as thin as I was in 2010, I'm still in the game.

Here's to hoping you are still in the game and trying to keep a good habit going.

1 comment:

Betina said...

I can no longer focus on a number. It is all consuming and depressing. I like what you said about "I am still in the game." When I think about my body these days I ask myself, "Do I feel good? Can I do the things I love to do without difficulty? Am I eating 4-6 veggies a day?" That's about it. The scale is no good. Also, a really good book about life in general (that covers body image issues) is "Daring Greatly" by Brene Brown. I highly recommend it.