I'm still trying to get back to 130 lbs. But my heart isn't in it the way it was when I was 160 lbs. trying to get to this goal.
I've seen this weight. I felt good but I still felt the panic of gaining weight and watching what I eat.
I am now sitting at 138 lbs. and some days I see 142 lbs. and batten down the hatches and watch what I eat for days and days.
Here's the turn around folks. Living inside my head looks like this most of my life: beating myself up for not being the ideal and perfect weight. Letting my hard work slip away with overindulging.
But I had a revelation about a month ago. I've been CONSISTENTLY exercise since 2009!!! And for the past two years, it's been at home whether it's been the running (outside & treadmill), biking, or following a DVD. I not only transition from working out at the gym (I thought that was the only way I could make myself workout) to seriously getting my sweat on at home.
Never in my life would I have done this. In my twenties, I had a lot of
Now, I rotate my workouts and while I'm not as thin as I was in 2010, I'm still in the game.
Here's to hoping you are still in the game and trying to keep a good habit going.
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I can no longer focus on a number. It is all consuming and depressing. I like what you said about "I am still in the game." When I think about my body these days I ask myself, "Do I feel good? Can I do the things I love to do without difficulty? Am I eating 4-6 veggies a day?" That's about it. The scale is no good. Also, a really good book about life in general (that covers body image issues) is "Daring Greatly" by Brene Brown. I highly recommend it.
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